Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Odd =]

I had the strangest dream last night, it happened in sections, I don't remember the order, but one section of the dream was of a black lady in a light purple sundress, with her hair pulled back in a short ponytail, and her young daughter in a white sundress, covered with sunflowers, were under a blue BMW being dragged along in a prairie setting. The lady was screaming for the driver to stop, which he finally did the mother was no longer under the BMW and was crying as she crawled towards her daughter attempting CPR. As soon as she reached her daughter the unknown male driver ran over the mothers legs, snapping both her tibia and fibula. She screamed. The driver drove off. The dreams ends. I am watching this from the perspective that I am a viewer like someone watching t.v., I can not affect the outcome.

Next section was of me watching people from a hotel room, in the same prairie setting, run around in what look like huge shallow mucky lake. They were going unusually fast. This section stops, I don't recall what happens next. But the next section is the same beginning just this time someone is there, and I ask him why people are running through the mucky lakes, he replies cause it is like a sport, it's fun. Some guy walks pass our window and looks up at us through the window and winks. After that I woke up. To get ready for school.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Empty like the thrash bin I just threw out...

Yesterday I saw Venus, and it did nothing for me. I need to find myself, all I was, was conditional. And that's not fair, that's not who I want to be. Yea, I love my job, yea I love the people around me. But when I am in the solitude of my mind, I am lost.

Here's to 2009 and knowing more about what makes me go tic tic.